Why I’ve Always Loved Baseball

It’s probably no surprise to you that I’ve always loved baseball. It hasn’t always been in the way I love it now. These days, I read about the sport all day and watch more games than I can count every week. It’s a self-enforcing cycle; the more I like it, the more baseball I get exposed to, which makes me like it more, on and on like that.

That’s not what made me like the sport in the first place, though. I’ve loved baseball for as long as I can remember. Every March, as I anxiously await the start of the season, I find myself reminiscing about how I ended up here. This year, those memories have come on even more strongly, because my dad’s birthday lines up with the start of the season and he’s turning 75 this year. I’m feeling so strongly, in fact, that Meg was kind enough to let me write about what got me hooked on the sport when I was a kid.

I didn’t grow up in a “baseball market.” We didn’t get Cardinals games on TV; for most of my childhood, we didn’t even have cable. But most of my fondest memories of being a kid revolve around the sport anyway. My parents got to work early on me, and they kept it up until I was a lifelong fan.

No baseball on TV? It was no problem, because my uncle taped a St. Louis promotional spot titled “Ozzie, That’s a Winner” and mailed it to us. It was a gas station advertisement, if I’m remembering correctly, with clips of great defensive plays interspersed around The Wizard talking about where he filled up his tank. I didn’t care about that part even a little bit. I watched that video until the tape wore out and tried to mirror Ozzie’s moves in our family room. Credit my mom and dad for sitting there without laughing while a small left-handed child tried to make himself look like the best defensive shortstop of all time, because they never once told me how doomed my dream of being the next Ozzie was.

Our family lore was packed with baseball, too. Most prominent was the time that my parents took me to an Orioles game as a baby and my dad started heckling mean old Jack Clark. At some point, Clark turned and said something back to him, at which point my dad held me up as a shield. “You wouldn’t hurt a baby, would you?” is an effective defense, even against curmudgeons, it seems.

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Now, is that story real? I’m skeptical. The timing’s all wrong, for one thing. Jack Clark mostly wasn’t in the AL when we lived near the O’s. And he was a Cardinal before that; why would my dad heckle him? My mom is sure of this story, though, and my dad doesn’t spend much time denying it. I’ve heard it so often that it’s just part of the fabric of my childhood now.

Extremely important edit: my mom, dad, and uncle all confirm that this was Kirk Gibson, not Jack Clark. Sorry for the slander, Jack, and Kirk, I’m glad you didn’t throw anything at me.

That’s obviously a good story, but stories alone didn’t make me a baseball fan. They just reinforced the baseball-mad upbringing that I had. We might have lived in the MLB wasteland of east Tennessee, but that never seemed to stop my parents from taking me to games. We saw the Braves, the Orioles, and sometimes the Cardinals. We saw the Giants in Candlestick in ’93; Dante Bichette, in town with the visiting Rockies, tossed my sister a baseball for her birthday. Most importantly, though, we saw the K-Jays.

You probably haven’t heard of the K-Jays. That’s because they’ve changed their name to the Smokies – first the Knoxville Smokies, and then the Tennessee Smokies when they departed the city for Sevierville. Back when I was a kid, though, they were a 25-minute drive from where I lived, and we went all the time. My dad taught us how to leave pennies on the train tracks before the game and then pick them up, flattened to a pancake, afterwards. He taught us how to get autographs from our favorite prospects – Carlos Delgado for me, Alex Gonzalez for Louise. He taught us how to sweet-talk the concessions people into giving us the soft serve helmets we didn’t yet have, and we collected all 28 teams with ease.

I don’t know how my parents found the time to take me to so many games. In my memory, I was there multiple times a week every summer. I lost a tooth in the right field bleachers once, chasing down a foul ball, and I’m not quite sure whether I ran into something or it was just loose enough to fall out from general horseplay. The tooth fairy left me a dollar and a note saying that the baseball players had brought the tooth to her.

For my 8th birthday party, I wanted to go to a minor league game. The Smokies were out of town, though. What did my parents do? They booked a party package in Chattanooga, a two-hour drive away, and took my friends and me down there for a party plus sleepover. As an adult, this memory boggles my mind. Voluntarily taking a trip with six 8-year-olds? What were they thinking?! But they were always willing to indulge my love of the game, no matter how far out of their way they had to go.

When my dad got a job at the University of Tennessee, my baseball fandom followed. The Vols let children of employees go to non-revenue-sport home games for free, and we took full advantage. I saw Todd Helton hit – and pitch! – so many times in one year that I swear he recognized me in the stands by the end of it. It probably helped that our band of children spent most of the game hanging over our seats onto the roof of the dugout and yelling.

As much as I loved baseball as a kid, it would have been easy to let that slip away as I hit college and then adulthood, but my dad didn’t take any chances. He cleverly linked up a set of college tours with the first time the Cardinals played interleague games in Boston and New York, and we made it a baseball trip. I can’t remember a thing about Columbia, where I never even applied, but I saw Roger Clemens’ 300th win decked out in Cards paraphernalia and got good-naturedly heckled by Yankees fans while doing it.

My first year of college, the Cardinals made the World Series. I’d never been, and so my dad and I drove 12 hours from Charlottesville to St. Louis and scalped tickets to Game 4 – whoops! One of my strongest baseball memories, to this day, is getting gas somewhere in West Virginia during that drive. I went in to pay and buy a soda and some snacks, and when I came back out my dad was hopping around the car and howling, actually howling. We had the game on the radio, and Jeff Suppan had just gotten lost off of third base and walked into a double play.

There’s something special about moments like those. When baseball gets its hooks in you early, it doesn’t let go. I don’t remember a lot of statistics from any of these years. I didn’t follow the game the way I do now. I didn’t even read Moneyball until 2011, long after it was a cultural touchstone. But I remember the personal moments, the way the sport wrapped itself around my life and family, vividly.

In late July of 2013, I’d just recently met my wife, though I didn’t know it yet. We were in the early dating phase, trying to see each other as frequently as possible. Naturally, I planned a last-minute four-day trip to Cooperstown with my dad and uncle to stay in a dingy hotel (miles outside of town) and watch the rare year where no one alive was inducted into the Hall. This was objectively crazy. We didn’t have any particular player to see. It was just about going. We ate so-so food, shared tiny beds, and tried to stump each other with baseball trivia. We waited in an hour-long autograph line to see Ozzie. We toured the museum, twice, and went to batting cages that threw honest-to-god sliders.

At the time, my friends thought I was crazy for going on this trip. I did too, to be honest. But looking back on it, I’m not surprised that I did it, or that I remember it so well. Baseball and family have always been wrapped up together, and our unplanned-yet-recurring baseball trips are just a part of that. Luckily, Jenna grew up a baseball fan too, and completely understood the instinct.

Even when I think about recent years, when I’ve been a full-time baseball writer, my strongest memories of the sport are about family. There’s the time we went to a Hudson Valley Renegades game the weekend of my wedding and my parents secretly got the team to bring us on the field (to get water balloons thrown at us — gee thanks Dad!) between innings. There’s the time we watched a Savannah Bananas game and made friends with the people around us in the stands. There’s the trip to Wrigley, a first for both my dad and me, when it was inexplicably freezing in late May. There’s the time my mom came to visit and we took in a Giants matinee, only for all kinds of weird baseball to break out.

I’m not alone in this relationship with the game, I’m sure. Sports aren’t so popular because of the data they collect; they’re popular for the feelings they engender. The on-the-field product matters a lot, but so does the sense of community, the togetherness with friends and family. No one taught me that lesson better than my parents.

I can’t wait for Opening Day. But I also can’t wait to talk with my parents about Opening Day, or about whatever game they’ve been to most recently, and I know they’ll want to hear about the same thing from me. I hope I pass that on to my kid some day. Baseball has always been a huge part of my life, and I wouldn’t have had these experiences if it weren’t for my parents. So thank you, guys, and happy 75th, Dad. I hope the year is filled with the real-life equivalent of inside the park home runs and double steals.





Ben is a writer at FanGraphs. He can be found on Bluesky @benclemens.

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FrancoeursteinMember since 2025
2 years ago

Thanks for this Ben. This article made me call my dad.

JoserMember since 2021
2 years ago
Reply to  Francoeurstein

This article made me wish I still could.

Anon21Member since 2018
2 years ago

Great stuff, Ben. My mom was the baseball nut in our family, and I owe my Braves fandom to her. This article reminded me how much I owe her for introducing me to something that’s brought so much joy to my life. We’ll definitely be texting tomorrow after Atlanta hopefully whomps the Phillies.

snakestl
2 years ago

Beautiful stuff, Ben. Days like this make me miss my Dad, Uncle and Grandpa a lot and at the same time makes me happy to have at least one more season to enjoy with my own kids. Season 40 of being a BFIB here we go!

booondMember since 2019
2 years ago

Thanks, Ben. Why isn’t Opening Day a holiday?

sadtromboneMember since 2020
2 years ago
Reply to  booond

At my high school they had a totally different (and harsher, although I can’t remember what it was) penalty if you skipped school on opening day compared with literally any other day. Otherwise half the school would have been gone.

JimMember since 2016
2 years ago

Great piece! You are really lucky to have parents like this.

vztaxes
2 years ago

😭🥰

Cool Lester SmoothMember since 2020
2 years ago

Awesome piece, Ben!

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to report a dust cloud that suddenly appeared in my office.

StuSheaMember since 2025
2 years ago

This was wonderful. Thanks for writing it. Those of us who grew up with parents who indulged our love of baseball are very lucky people.

Broken BatMember since 2020
2 years ago

Realty nice Ben. As I read your story of Love, James Earl Jones somehow was speaking in the background… Some of us were truly blessed to have the game handed down by Dad’s, older brothers, Uncles and Aunts, Grandpa’s and you name it, The Love of the Game was something that was nurtured by explanations, visuals on TV, sharing a long ride in a car listening to the game on the radio, and then actually getting to go to one of the Cathedrals called Parks or Stadiums sitting with people who knew how to share their love for the game and us as kids.

Back in the day, the walk into Wrigley, up the steps as the smell of cigars filled the air, quickly followed by the scent of freshly cut grass. The flags flying freely out to left center by the prevailing southwest winds. It was magic then and still is to those who Love this game. Hey Frosty Malt!

Psychic... Powerless...
2 years ago
Reply to  Broken Bat

Also back in the day, people used to smoke joints in the WF bleachers.

tootblan
2 years ago

Beautiful piece, I believe baseball is really about your relationship with your dad (or whoever passed the game down to you)

bosoxforlifeMember since 2016
2 years ago

Ben, this article reinforces what I expected to read from you and I loved it. It gets to the heart of what constitutes a true baseball fan and why those of us who love the game in a way similar to you came upon it. In the late 40’s and early 50’s baseball was THE dominant game and during the summer much of everyday life emanated from the game. The kids gathered at the sandlot in the morning and we played and played. In the evening dad came home and a game of catch was mandatory then what Willie, Mickey or The Duke did was a part of the conversation around the dinner table. Football or basketball had yet to make their presence felt and the World Series was the only championship that anybody cared about but, boy oh boy, they cared!! It is clear from interacting with you on the chats that you see the game with a pair of eyes that see the same game much like I have seen it for 75+ years. Sadly, in today’s angry world, much of what provided us with a pleasant background to our everyday existence is in turmoil but starting today and through the next seven months I can sit back and watch some of the best athletes to ever play, hit, pitch, field, throw and run then spend some time with the Fangraphs fraternity enjoying spirited conversation about this game that all who are here love.

FrancoeursteinMember since 2025
2 years ago
Reply to  bosoxforlife

I love your nostalgic commentary.

Mike NMN
2 years ago

As a teenager in 1949, Mom went to Joe DiMaggio Day. It imbued her with a sort of mystical power. Whenever she took us to the ballpark, something strange would happen. The Force was with her, I guess.

Mike CouillardMember since 2016
2 years ago

Wow, who started cutting onions in here?

TKDCMember since 2016
2 years ago

Amazing piece. Also grew up in East Tennessee (even East-er than you) and it’s hard to explain how little MLB entered the public consciousness of that area. To like baseball growing up there, especially if you don’t even play it, requires you to really, really like baseball.

bernardgilkeyhasaposseMember since 2019
2 years ago

Ben – were you also a “child of KMOX?” I used to listen to games low on my bedroom clock radio. Signal clear as a bell in Charlotte, NC. After dark, anyway.

None of my family had the same allegiances. My Dad was a Braves fan, my little brother randomly liked all the Cincinnati teams (but especially the Reds because of Eric Davis). Speed and defense were all I was good at as a player (I “retired” as soon as I aged into “curveballs allowed” competition), so I picked up a lifelong el Birdos addiction.

BenMember since 2016
2 years ago

Yup. Calling my dad now.

johndarc
2 years ago

So are we all learning what Ben Clemens looks like from this piece?

marchandman34Member since 2020
2 years ago
Reply to  johndarc

Nope, the group previously had a live chat in the COVID days, that’s the Ben I recall! Great share Mr. Clemens, long live the game of base ball!

sadtromboneMember since 2020
2 years ago

This piece is phenomenal even without any “lessons learned” but if there’s one thing I would urge people to take out of it is the total magic of minor league, college, and summer wood bat baseball. It is hard to get to major league games all the time, especially now. But the minors and amateur baseball is the sort of thing many more people can afford to go to a lot. The sort of monthly or weekly family activity that can make kids fall in love with baseball.

The ballpark has always been one of happy places. I also associate it with family, because I went with them a lot as a child. But a lot of this is because going to the ballpark is social. You’re going outside on a beautiful day with both your close friends and thousands of other people, participating in rituals together, and having ample time to sample things you really shouldn’t eat and chat with friends. Nothing really beats it in terms of having a lot of quality time with people I like (or love). It’s one of the only places where time stops for me.

MarkMember since 2017
2 years ago

Loved the piece, Ben. I had to laugh about the “inexplicable” late-May freeze-out at Wrigley. I’m almost your dad’s age and have been going to Wrigley Field for more than 50 years. Remember, the ballpark is just a few blocks from Lake Michigan, which doesn’t “warm” up, relatively speaking, till July or so. Before that time, when the wind is out of the east, it can get cold, even in May, or even sometimes in June. I have never been as cold at a sporting event (except for a couple of kids’s soccer games in late fall) as I have been several times at Wrigley!

Ryan
2 years ago

Really cool to hear this side of your life, Ben.

MarkZMember since 2016
2 years ago

Go to Cooperstown. Especially in the off-season. It’s a magical place.

chewbaccaMember since 2025
2 years ago

OK OK, full disclosure – I have spent the last day crying out of happiness. What better tribute to a couple of average parents. I’ve been bloviating about how much of a HUGE impact I have finally had on our national pastime:-).

A couple of clarifications – it was Kirk Gibson, not Jack Clark. As Ben knows more than anyone, I have a huge mouth and I love to trash-talk players from the opposing teams, especially after a few cold ones. I mean, I never would trash-talk a Roberto Clemente award winner, but as I remember it, Kirk had a reputation as a bad boy. Indeed check this out, Tiger fans: (https://www.si.com/mlb/2018/07/19/kirk-gibson). I took full advantage that a penalty for taunting, unsportsmanlike conduct, untrustworthy behavior, ungentlemanly fraudulent, bad sportsmanship, or even poor sportsmanship did not yet exist.

I guess my loud, obnoxious, foul-mouthed taunts got under Kirk’s skin that day as he beat up my Orioles. One last full disclosure, I may have ruined Ben’s chances as the next Ozzie. I always wanted him to be left-handed – I mean really, one full step less to first base! I remember helping him learn to write, throw, and even shake hands. I always tried to get him to use his left first:-). Ben, I love you SO freaking much! Thank you for the best birthday present an old man could ever dream.

clemlibbyMember since 2019
2 years ago

The heckling incident happened when you were only a few WEEKS old. Dad was heckling Kirk Gibson when he was on deck. Yikes! It was October 4, 5, or 6th.

chewbaccaMember since 2025
2 years ago
Reply to  clemlibby

Yep, that’s the type of fan Ben’s mom is. Who else would agree to take their son to a game when he was only one-month old!! I remember the first time I met Ben’s mom. She was on the opposing team of a co-ed, work softball game. The second time I saw Ben’s mom was when I visited her office (we were both working at the USEPA). On her wall was a life-sized poster of her fav at the time – Cal Ripken Jr.! Dang, I knew right then she was the one😎. For those keeping score at home, Washington DC fans did not have a team at the time. It was in the desert of time between the Senators and the Nationals. We had to venture to Memorial stadium in Baltimore to see the pros play.